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All I want is to be who I want to be
To breathe the air that gasp mi free
To live the dreams my mind conceived
To see the world in love and peace

Let us not take love for granted
For many awaits the touch for hopes and inspirations
Dream. Dare . Do
Let the sun burns through the horizon and the stars to sparkle
Face each day with a smle for others
Never let yesterday's disappointment overshadow tomorrow's dreams....

*-=__It is not about loving a perfect person...
...but to love an imperfect person perfectly __=-*

***__________. dreams of the sparkled stars____::***

::_memories unforgottened_::
June 2004
July 2004
August 2004
September 2004
November 2004
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
October 2005
February 2006
March 2006
November 2006
December 2006
December 2007
May 2008

Sunday, December 10, 2006

--- Recalling the past 1---

--- Recalling the past 1---

Ok...i dunno where to start blogging from again since i've stopped for so long...so mani things to write but so difficult to get them out....mayb im not so much of a expressive person after all....

ok flash back bit by bit....

Saturday/Friday (8th/ 9th Dec):
Spent most of the time at home wif my family...Trust mi, U'll realise how great it is after not being home for almost 2 months. Even if we did nothing particular together, being at home knowing wad daddy mummy ,bro and sis is doing is good enough. Being able to haf a simple meal together is so much of a blessing....Oh yar...i watched lots of shows too.....those tat I pirated from fredo during exam times and thoe VCDs tat i rented...

Oh yar...caught up on my sleep as well, more or less recovered from my exhaustion from exams and camp...so the rest of my effectiveness for this short hols shall b dependent on whether im lazi or not or whether my heart feels like doing it or not...

Oh yar...sorrie to those who tried to 'date' mi out this two days...I realli juz want to put family as piority...soon again ok~ next time~ i'll join u guys in all the fun again` ;)

Sunday- Thursday (3rd to 7th Dec)
Went for YVIP 06 as helper....my 6th yr in consecutive in this camp, but first time in a not so stressful role. I should say I seriously never tot i will come back to this camp again ever since after I end off YV05 which i screwed up totally. Somehow I tot I've put a fullstop to something which i always tot will b a passion for life. I wanted to totally disappear from SVC and take a good rest from all that had happened. If not bcos of Vick who ask mi come back and help and the little bit of twitch in mi to 'feel' in volunteering again...i seriously think i'll realli end my journey here....

I should say this year, as a helper, i dun feel as much impact that I have on people or wad the camp have on mi....but I wunt deny i see and learnt a lot and at the same time feel in a veri diff way...

As a helper, I seriously manage to step back and look at things differently. I see how the commitee supported each other through the camp, I see how Vick handles stuff and motivates everyone tru everything. I see how things can b tackled in diff ways...*Salute to Vick*

Also, another thing that made mi feel a lot abt was when i see everyone growing up. Somehow, I feel so happy and acheived when u see volunteers growing up. Im so glad to see everyone back. Daniel, used to think like he's so playful and stuff, but now look, he now handle the programme so well..... Tok to him and realise that he' no longer the little boy plays around but somewan which deep tots, somehow the topics that we tok abt now are so different. Well done Daniel! Jiayun and Siru! the small little girls...always so cute....I still can't help it but feel like they are the little girls i met two years ago......but now look at how they handle things ...They've grown up. Kok Wei and Meng Shyuan and Wayne, Hahah oni manage to know them like in last yr when we train Bishan Home for Captain's ball, then still felt like they are these grp of young boys who come and go for volunteering as and when they like. But now...they are totally diff.....all grown up and handle things so well...Haha...To the rest of the commitee and TFs as well~ Well done. ( I feel like im some old granny whos looking at things as a soul...haha)

Another thing not to forget was campfire nite, when all the 'old birds' come back. I can't help but to feel touched...looking at all the different batches whom i used to work wif, batches by batches grauate, go into army, come out, step into their diff phrases of life....I can't help to cry at how many lifes i've touched in the past few YVs and how mani friends I've made to let everyone rememebr every year about how YVIP once left a footprint in their lifes.

Somehow it rekindles my volunteering spirit again~ Like how can i let obstabcles question my passion for volunteering, how can i let ppl who are not genuine about volunteering to come into my life and shake my beliefs. I wish i can restart off my journey again~ This time i wan to take a different approach. A slower and more humble approach. ( Not oni for volunteering , but for my life in general).

Somewan used to say that volunteering is a marathon, now im at a veri tiring part of the journey, I hope i wunt give up. Hope to see smiles on faces that touch my heart again~

Same to the rest of my life, its time to stop and smell the flowers. To those who had stepped into my life and walked out of me again, Im gonna forget him to move on again~ Im gonna b as strong as ever....no matter how short my life will b.......
::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Sunday, December 10, 2006